∞ faith

im eighteen now

2012-01-19T17:41:00.004+08:00

So... yesterday was my birthday. Didnt do anything much/special 'cept for having my fav korean food at my fav korean restaurant (opposite har par villa) with my family and Reece. And my mom got me a bouquet of flowers. FIRST time receiving, and NOT from Reece. bleugh.... But 's fine.

had a mini gathering, wouldn't call it a celebration cos i dont need the limelight, the saturday before me actual birthday.

Honestly speaking, i thought it'd be quite a failure cos it was a super last min thing. Like i had everything planned on thursday night and starting REALLY planning, even though i've planned it a million times in my head, i just couldnt make the one in my head come true YET. So it was really last min but my friends still came! Those who meant alot to me especially. A few of my bestfriends actually told me that they wont be able t make it but still came. Served as a surprise for me. pleasent one.

Whatever it is, whatever happened, im eighteen now. It doesnt really make a difference cos........... im still ME. I dont gain knowledge/wisdom immediately when i hit 18. Still plenty of time to grow up. I received alot of presents and the biggest of which, was from my boyfriend.

YALL HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I LOVE HUGE PRESENTS.

its kind of a cheap thrill for me. idk........ im guessing alot of you like big presents too??

it's as LONG as a rectangular coffee table and as thick as....... like 3/4 thick mattresses stacked ontop of one another? Yeah huge right? i know.

Wanna what isit?

FORMSPRING ME.

PLEASE REVIVE MY FORMSPRING AS I ATTEMPT T REVIVE MY BLOG

2012-01-08T11:47:00.000+08:00

I've so much on my mind. But whenever i come to this page, i just dont know how to put them into words. Guess i wont be blogging much bout my personal life anymore. Till then ^^V

2011-12-21T02:01:00.002+08:00

why's it so hard to be happy? being happy is simple yet complex.

anyone has answers to my question or HOW to be?

buona notte for now! arrivederci ;)

In september

2011-12-18T01:16:00.002+08:00

Bad things happen. Hell yeah they do. I really wanna forgive and forget. But its soooo hard. Every now and then i get reminded of it and i'll just let my mind run wild. Cant believe it actually happened. And till now, I've yet t hear a satisfying answer for your actions. Guess I cant do a shit bout it. Gotta suck it up. Doubt i'll ever forget OR/AND forget. This is not the extreme. But by far, yes.

Its true.

Girls forgive but dont forget.

Guys forget but dont forgive.

Trust, love and faith. They'll slowly die out.

God knows.

2011-12-04T00:46:00.002+08:00

you're right. no one said it was easy. but no one told me it was gon be this difficult.

its been a good 4 months. I wonder when will all the quarrels subside and lessen while we settle down comfortably in each other's life. I know sometimes i ask for too much. and i may be quite sensitive at times. throwing tantrums and etc. glad you stick with me through thick n thin n put up with me. Although we almost gave up yesterday night but we eventually did not. I thank god.

oh god he just broke my chain of thoughts by talking to me one skype.

Anywayz, im working at cck now, somewhere there as a temp cashier. Not bad. earning a few hundreds in a week. then till i find a better job im gon work at frolick. their pay............is lower than average to be honest. but i still took it up until i can find another job i want thats of higher pay. till then i just have t stick with this.... sounds easy, just squeezing yogurt. But so many rules n regulation lol. kbye

2011-11-29T13:39:00.002+08:00

This blog has officially become a place where i dump all my feelings when im frustrated. For those who still read, maybe a few? I have no idea.

Life. sucks. because im a chinese. hahhahah. and I have yellow skin. When will someone come tanning with me...

Attended school for the last two days for SPF training. basically all we do is manage the game stall we're incharge of for the pre u seminar and Pre U 1s orientation next year. I'm 1/3 through MI and i cant wait for it t end. Till then.

2011-11-27T00:10:00.001+08:00

This will make me sound insane and extremely possessive, but I just want you to be mine. & only mine.

2011-11-18T01:56:00.001+08:00

this relationship has turned from sweet to sour. sour to bitter.

I pray for god to spare me the misery n guide me to wherever this will lead to with less of these shit that life throws at me. sincerely, Julia.

2011-11-18T00:28:00.000+08:00

"Granted, with Love there will inevitably be some pain.
But that pain does not equate to ceaseless and meaningless quarrels about anything and everything just so you can quote the self fulfilling prophecy of "love is pain".

If you love him, and he loves you, I don't see why there's such a big problem unless you
complicate it yourselves.
Something really important that bby taught me is that quarreling doesn't benefit anyone. Neither party gains anything out of it. And winning a quarrel doesn't get you anywhere, it just means that you've succeeded in hurting the other party more.
If his/her happiness is worth the compromise, why not put down your pride just to put that smile back on the face of the one you love?"

as quoted from @pxdkitty

2011-11-16T23:20:00.001+08:00

living by the quote above

2011-11-15T22:24:00.001+08:00

I have a stalker named Reece Peh.

Skipped dinner n ended up muching on potato chips. How will my diet ever work?! While typing im still eating. NO SELF CONTROL. FOREVER FAT.

2011-11-13T12:35:00.000+08:00

we made sushi.

yummy hehe

2011-11-05T15:25:00.001+08:00

i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you

This, is my friday

2011-11-04T16:41:00.002+08:00

It sucks how easily I am replaced. How you can so easily chose someone or something over me. How its all so easy for you. Wonder how'll you feel if i did the same to you. But i guess you'll never know how it feels like. Because i give up everything to be with you. I dedicate all my time to you eve if it means just sitting n staring at each other. I no longer have time for me friends or other stuff. You might think, why? you neednt do that for me. But im doing this, willingly. Because i love you. And i wanna be with you every single minute. But you dont. Your actions shows. Please just stop talking. Because talk is cheap. Instead, prove it. Actions speak louder than words, anytime.

Im disappointed. At what we've allowed both of us to become.
xx

2011-11-02T22:55:00.001+08:00

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands, tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose
What we had, oh no

2011-11-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

Happy 100th day my dear.

2011-11-01T23:03:00.002+08:00

I really have this huuuuuuuuuuge problem with myself.

Im socially disabled, its a fact. I cant interact with strangers. I dont know how to. I feel intimidated, left out, its like im a solo all the time no matter where i go what i do. And when all these emotions kicks in, i just close myself up. I dont talk. at all. unless people try, my answers are usually short n sweet which are conversation killers. I wanna open up. I wanna talk. I wanna make new friends and be seen as outgoing. Its really hard tho.

Everytime i open my mouth t talk, i feel like people arent listening. Or maybe im too soft so they cant hear me. But basically what i get is nothing, no replies no nothing. So if people arent listening, i figured out i should just STFU. I'll be in my own bubble by then. I just shut down. Then my mood starts to sway. I turn grouchy and touchy and irritated. You can see it from my facial expressions.

What comes next is what i hate most, becos of my social disability which affects my mood, i affect others too. And when i get home i just think back and wonder how all these people around me put up with all these shit. If i were my own friend, i would ve left long ago. thinking this girl needs t stop thinking the world revolves around her. I wanna change. Cos i dont want those i want t stay, t be leaving. I will change. I just need time. This will be included in my next year's resolution.

Sometimes I feel as if im not good enough for you. Always makin you feel like shit, giving you shit. and you would still put up with me. what would life be without you. Im pretty sure i'll find out soon at the rate I, and only I, am going.

2011-10-31T22:06:00.001+08:00

2011-10-26T22:14:00.002+08:00

They were right, things change, people change.

what if i cant take change?

what if i dont want change?

Guess its inevitable huh.

Maybe you dont realise, but there really is a change. I dont know what to say and do to convince you of this change i feel inside of me. But i really hope its just temporary. Cos i dont like the way it is right now. I just want us t be how we used t be, in the beginning. Inseperable, reliance and everything goes the way we want. How you shower me with unconditional love, care, and concern. How you give me all your attention and is attentive t everything i do and say.

Now, im just not as important anymore.

Then again, maybe its just me. Maybe its just me thinking too much. Feeling insecure. Or maybe im not pretty enough to keep u by my side. I dont know. I really dont.

I just wish this feeling will go and things will go back to how they were

Live fast, Die young

2011-10-19T17:41:00.004+08:00

My life is falling apart. Wait, nothing was ever in place anyway. But my life is pretty screwed now.

Sometimes I really wanna getaway. From here, from earth, from yall. And just be with myself. Not needing to answer to probing questions, or let your mood be affected by someone else's, Not bothering bout what others have to think about you, and whatever they want from you. Im fucking tired of all these bullshit. For now, i really feel as if i've had enough of it all. I dont need anyone who isnt genuine and doesnt wanna stay in my life. What if life was nothing but role playing, what if this is all a game, a stage, a.......... whatever. Im clueless. I see no reason in everything anymore. My bestfriends are not my bestfriends. My friends are not my friends. My family is not family. Whats left of me?

No one should rely on anyone to make em feel better, or good or even worthy of themselves. Because no one really cares. You only have yourself through it all.

This is the cold hard truth about life. I guess, I just gotta suck it up and carry on.

What choice do I have?

2011-10-16T21:02:00.000+08:00

No I can’t take one more step towards you, cuz all that’s waiting is regret
And don’t you know I’m not your ghost anymore, you lost the love I loved the most
I’ve learned to live half alive, and now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are, running round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart
You’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul
So don’t come back for me, who do you think you are?

for a very special someone

2011-10-08T20:09:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was one hell of a roller coaster.

We were this close to..

I wonder why did it ever cross your mind. I know I'll never find another like you.

You're one in a million. I believe everyone of us is a unique self. So there's no way im gonna find another like you. I know what i have and i wont let go of it. I may be egoistic, very indeed for a girl. Stubborn. And i really act like i dont care all the time. But the truth is, its just my cold exterior. I care about every single thing about you, the smallest detail, I really do. I want you to know this. I just wanna pass of as strong cos i dont want people t see me at my weakest. Not even you.

I want you t know that im sorry for all the things that i've done n made you feel like i dont give a shit. You're all i have. all that i want and all that i need. I like how you treat me like you're my 'daddy' and how you love me unconditionally. Whether im skinny, fat, ugly, pretty or my awful personality, weird habits and tom boyish actions. Im not romantic, i dont write love notes, sing you songs, tell the whole world how much i love you. But just know that deep inside, I do.

If only i could borrow your vision for a min or two n see how you look at me, think of me and if you feel the same way i do bout you.

2011-09-20T19:38:00.004+08:00

I hate being away from you.

If only they knew how I felt bout you.

side track.

. avril lavigne is fucking pretty.

. promos in a week or less?

. freedom in 3 weeks

. legally 18 in a few months

. monsoon season ;)

2011-09-14T22:34:00.002+08:00

hi i am............ FREAKING OUT

ive a test tmr and my notes are stupid becos they dont make sense!!!

or maybe i cant make sense outta it. BUT. im not alone.

im freaking out so im blogging, ok that doesnt make sense either

fuck it. seiruosly im just crapping my way through this post becos i cant study with notes like this oh god oh god. oh dear god.

Honestly ive never been so......... whats that word?! whatever, bout a test before

ive missed too much lessons in the past few weeks i wonder whats wrong wimme

i needa get my priorities right again darn.

i need t stab myself now. seriously.

International trade. what are the benefits? higher standards of living becos consumers have a wider variety of goods t chose from?

Oh my god total fucking bullshit.

like whutttttttttttt............. ok bye

2011-08-25T17:11:00.002+08:00

I've been missing school these few weeks constantly.

Like I'd at least miss a day of school every week. I kind of am reluctant bout going t school. Its not like I've a choice. I mean i really wanna do well n all but............. ugh.

I hate missing lessons. Cos i'll feel so lost. But all these reasons are not enough t make me wanna get off the bed and rid of my lazy bones.

Anyhowz, Its our first month today. I cant believe its been this long cos it felt like it was barely a week or two. Times flies.

Time i set my priorities right and put my friends n family first. Realise that i need t spend more time with them.

Also, time to go on a diet?

2011-08-22T17:31:00.004+08:00

Can't believe im back on this space updating but what and what not bout whatever it is.

Selvi has been coming back t sg for a few times since the beginning of this year. always staying for only bout 2-3weeks which is never enough. The last time she came back, we went on a triple date to USS and had dinner after. I miss her so much. If u read my older archives, i've been pretty mean towards her becos she has t upset me all the time by whatever means it is. But honestly, i miss having her around. She and Yanting knows me INSIDE OUT. i really mean that. Majority of the time they'll know what im thinking and things like that. In a way, its good. I mean it pretty much means that they know me well enough t know my every move. In a way it just means im predictable. well........... being predictable isnt a good thing right?

Anyhowz, been surviving well in sch. Drama here n there. But oh well, you cant avoid the inevitable. If people were t judge you, let em be? If only i gave two fucks bout what u say/think bout me. Studies wise i think im doing well enough t be promoted. Thats what i HOPE. Worst comes to worst, there's an oct intake for Temasek Poly. Sounds pretty good huh? But my mom has alot to say bout it.

Passed my CPR and lifesaving 1,2 & 3. Gon take bronze medallion in a few months. On my way t being a part time lifeguard ;) getting dark by the week. I loike~

2011-08-21T22:36:00.001+08:00

Back on track.

2011-05-22T22:51:00.002+08:00

Hi, I'm back. Only for a minute or two.

The grass on the other side is always greener.

http://killersthrill.tumblr.com/

Just saying, read only if you want to.

I can so relate t this,

"I had this one best friend, she loves to criticize me in the expense of allowing herself to feel better. Like for example, "you're so skinny, you make me look so fat, but its okay cause you're short" or "it's not fair that you look better in the pictures cause you have make up on, but its okay, you have an awkward smile" or "you're Miss Boring and I am Miss Fun"in front of all her freakin friends. All the comments I've mentioned may seem harmless, but she does it way too many times that it's pissing me off. She was my childhood friend man, I used to love her presence so much, did growing up really changed her that much? But I had to refrain from hanging out with her cause every single time we meet, she's just throwing criticisms at me, which still makes my blood boil. And every single time she tried to hurt my feelings, not once I've tried to defend myself or retaliate back by throwing a huge criticism back at her, because I didn't have the heart to hurt her. Where the hell did she pick up so much courage to hurt me again and again? I begin doubting myself. I told my boyfriend, am I really that bad of a person that she has to keep correcting my personality?"

From www.its-szes.blogspot.com

2011-04-14T20:56:00.001+08:00

moved.

Killersthrill.tumblr.com

Probably for good.

2011-04-13T22:24:00.001+08:00

Bleed to know your alive.

2011-03-31T19:40:00.000+08:00

Great friends made (inserts heart shape)

2011-03-31T19:33:00.001+08:00

8.	scene kid	67 up, 7 down
	buy scene kid mugs, tshirts and magnets usually between the ages of 14-18. They are an interesting species. a typical scene kid will claim to love cupcakes, diamonds, hello kitty and basically anything shiny or pink. Photography is a big thing in a scene kids world. they often write in their 'about me' sections on myspace that they want to be a photographer and prove how good they are at photography by posting pictures they took, usually consisting of an inanimate object (mostly cupcakes) in black and white. all scene kids strive to be internet famous just like their heroes (Audrey Kitching, Jeffree Star etc) and thrive on being the cause of internet drama and love when people start rumours about them so they can bitch about that person and make bulletins bad mouthing them. They have a "dont fuck with me" kinda attitude and admit to being shallow and arrogant and always claim to not give a shit of what people think of them when really thats all they care about. screen names are sacred in the scene kid culture. typical screen names include things such as "CaitlinxChaos" and "SallyxSuicide". their hobbies include dying and cutting their own hair. most scene kids will have more than one colour in their hair and the style will consist of multi, uneven layers with short choppy layers on top, and long straight hair extensions down the bottom. scene kid #1: "I plan on making something out of my life. I have a passion for hairstyling/make-up application and as soon as I'm finished high school, I am going to cosmetology school." scene kid #2: "i dont care about hatemails. they actually amuse me. you don't even know me to have the right to send me some. don't think you'll get my attention then. you can call me vain. i'm not." http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=scene%20kid&page=2

I disagree with some but agree with most. heh.

2011-03-22T21:06:00.002+08:00

I dont think i mentioned this.

But touch rugby girls, as in me n my team mates, had a friendly

match' (not so much of a match, just getting t know the game kind of match) with pioneer junior college. It was fun.

But being strangled in the neck by the arms of a girl maybe isnt that fun.

My team mate yanked her long rapunzel her in revenge fo me.

All I can say is, Sweet revenge.

But i hold no grudges. Cause it really was just a match t let us year ones have a feel of what's it like t be playing touch.

I look forward t school.

And gurvinder who's in india, prolly riding elephants, t be back soon :)

2011-03-21T19:05:00.000+08:00

2011-03-19T17:59:00.003+08:00

Been reaallyy busy.

I know i say this all the time. But its true.

I only decided t blog today cos im exceptionally free and the thought of keeping this space alive for a lil while. Well also because im having my march holidays now.

So, yeh life's been kind of packed recently.

I hardly have time t just sit down n breathe or just space out for awhile.

And i've been sick every since my holidays started.

Coughing, sniffing. basically any symptoms u can think of that leads t flu.

yeh n the long pause up there is just me cos im out of words.

anywayz we had a class outing yesterday. and like 1/3 of the class turned up. So it was just the few of us. Nevertheless, friends made. Glad we made the effort t bond over the holidays.

: )

2011-03-06T13:09:00.001+08:00

SShhh. I said in my prvious post that i didnt want the weekends t exist right?

Omg f myself. Hahah! I totally need this break. EVERYBODY NEEDS.

Oh god. Okay. Buhbye.

NADHIR BINGKUEN SELVI I MISS YALL.

2011-03-02T20:59:00.001+08:00

Jc life is tough. really.

Okay its not like im in a JC. but... considered bah?

Yep I really do my homework when i go home now and its like im kind of losing sleep these days.

I cant sleep at night cos i worry bout tomorrow.

All in all, i just hope i'll be able t handle all these for the next three years :)

still need time t adjust t the time n all i guess.

Oh yeah my phone died yesterday nigt.

Totally BLACK OUT.

I was so worried but i went t sleep eventually.

Then today during Mother tongue i was telling vans about my phone. Then i pass her my spoiled phone t see.

Then she's like 'okay im gonna pray for your phone'

SHE REALLY PRAYED AND MY PHONE WAS REVIVED OMG I SWEAR IT WAS UNBELIEVABLE.

She say she does that t her laptop n handphone also.

im like OH EM GEE.

WTF?! haha but aw thanks anyway :) saved me all the trouble of going all the way t apple. heh

Pictures accumulated every now and then

2011-02-21T20:42:00.001+08:00

2011-02-21T20:41:00.001+08:00

Sorry fo not updating this lil space of mine for soooo long.

Anywayz, i've been really busy in school.

like i end sch at 5plus everyday.

The earliest is 1245 but i have CCA till like 6?

Yep btw i joined touch rugby as my cca.

Like i went for dance try outs but ugh no. so i decided t take touch.

since its something new and i like t do sports so i was thinking... why not?

And its really enjoyable lor.

Like i look forward t school n cca everyweek.

I wish weekends dont exist.

HAHA. honestly lah. But the thing bout sch is, WE GET HOMEWORK ON THE FIRST WEEK OF SCH, ALREADY?

Yep. And i've been diligently doing my work. AT HOME SOMEMORE.

During sec sch really slack ALL THE WAY. Yep if you know what i mean.

In BVSS there's hardly homework at all?

I go home, all i do is surf the net watch a little bit of tv, eat my dinner n just lie on the couch like a couch potato.

Life was like this for me. So easy so relaxed.

But in MI its really diff.

In a good way, it pushes us t work hard.

Anyways im doing homework while im like blogging lah.

See! efficiency X 9823749276

HAHA.

School has been keeping me busy

2011-02-08T22:26:00.001+08:00

Hello world!
Been really busy with sch. Made new friends and all X3
So sorry I don't have the time t update.
Stay tuned!

2011-02-01T19:49:00.000+08:00

I am officially a PU1.

This is so.......... urgh.

CNY. SOON.OMG.

2011-01-27T20:54:00.001+08:00

Hello. I am from M.I. Look down on me/my sch however way you want. Like i give a damn.
Just dont cry when I make it t U.
HUMPF :p

2011-01-26T00:07:00.002+08:00

People say, putting on make up is a basic form of respect.
Not that I disagree.
But. Dont over do it.

2011-01-24T23:22:00.006+08:00

FISH AND CO WITH MA FRIENDS FOR MY ADVANCED BDAY DINNER.

AFT I TOOK MY RESULTS I FELT LIKE THIS..................

( i just decided t camwhore)

i think its called, mixed emotions

HAHAHA

AND TODAY

IS MY OFF DAYZZZZZZZ.

FROZEN GRAPEEEEEEEEEZZZZZZZZZZ~

BYE. HAFTA WORK TMR.

2011-01-22T23:37:00.001+08:00

Just two words for you.

First word starts with a 'F'

Second word is a 'off'

F, off.

It isnt a riddle too hard, is it?

2011-01-22T23:31:00.001+08:00

2011-01-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

Think you know me?

Well, think twice.

2011-01-17T10:16:00.002+08:00

My heart is broken.

And its bleeding and bleeding and bleeding.

The question is, when does the bleeding stop?

When does the wound clots?

And the answer is, you'll never know.

" So one day he found her crying

Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck 12
Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick
or the wolves gonna blow it down"

2011-01-10T11:54:00.004+08:00

panorama of my house!

Plain boring pic VS pop art effect.

Fish eye!

All the abv pictures taken with my new camera. Yeah compact camera! HAHAHA

no editting or whatsoever cos im cool like that

Right now, I am not nervous at all, neither m i afraid.

And i reasoned out in my mind the two possibilities.

One, not nervous becos you know you'll do well.

Two, not nervous becos you estimated the number of points you'll get (which obviously wouldnt look good)

Funny becos im neither one nor two.

But ofcos im hoping for the better so im thinking i fall into the 'one' category.

Then again, life is full of the unexpected.

So maybe the outcome will be reversed.

Okay it was just a random thought that popped into my mind.

I dont have anything else t do t kill time.

So i tried reasoning out why arent i nervous yet.

So yeah, the best of luck!

2011-01-06T18:59:00.005+08:00

Today wasn't really gud.

In fact I kind of expected this.

Plans falling apart, losing control of your emotions n so on.

Nevertheless, tday was still fun, apart from the bad stuff.

I went t various poly's for their open house.

I went t 3 in a day. That's cos i specially took today off for the open house.

And only ONE day off.

So i had t squeeze everything into one day.

Pictures are worth a thousand words aren't they?

So yeah the same ol thang im gonna say, however cliche it sounds, let the pictures do the talking!

BACK TO WORK TMR.

Since my boss have decided t increase my pay, im staying on. And im working 5 days a week now. I have more time for friends n family n shopping!

Toodles ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2011-01-04T20:47:00.003+08:00

The day we went central t try out the new BBQ chicken restaurant @ central and we got free candy floss cos they were giving em out fo free.

So long people! I've finally found myself a full times job. and i probably wont have time t blog or crap around or take pics.

Watch this space tho!

2010-12-26T19:51:00.002+08:00

Am on the car now, going for dinner.
Btwz, lil miss fussy finally found a job. The pay is okay okay only I think?
But anywayz, it's the experience gained and the friends made!
I'm just hoping that my colleague will be kind haha and fun t hang out with?
Let's keep our fingers crossed aites?

Happy boxing day y'all!
Have a great one!
X

2010-12-22T15:49:00.001+08:00

2010-12-18T23:07:00.005+08:00

SWAP AND SHOP WAS GREAT, REALLY.

Okay, I only say its great because i made $ HAHA.

I am sooooo happy.

I am sooooo rich i wanna fly.

And we got free redbull. Cos this girl was promoting and she gives the people she approach free redbull. Woah free leh. AHHAHA.

Okay yanting came over t sit talk fo a while.

Corine wanted t come but she came too late!

My bad, Mass texted the wrong timing.

its till 5PM. But i said 7PM. SORRY.

Met her in the toilet, coincidentally tho. Heh.

Okay then we had dinner. Which i didnt eat.

And we walked arnd vivo. Feeling rich.

Then wanted t cab home but decided t save money.

Really lor its been months since i last cabbed.

Bloody proud of myself. Aiya i dont have the habit anywayzzzzzzzzzz. soooooozzzzzzz.

2010-12-17T22:08:00.002+08:00

HI EVERYONE.

PLS COME DOWN T ST JAMES TMR

ANYTIME FROM 11AM-7PM.

SWAP AND SHOP FLEA WILL BE HELD THR.

AND I'M PARTICIPATING IN THIS FLEA.

PLS COME N SUPPORT :)

http://www.swapandshopflea.blogspot.com/

2010-12-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

2010-12-16T21:41:00.003+08:00

Planned to go west coast tday.

But apparently our plans got delayed because bingkuen overslept!

We even had t go t his home n ring his doorbell t wake him up!

Yeh, no exaggerating.

Sooooo i was in like bermuders and t shirt becos i thought we were doing outdoor stuff.

We went t vivo for a movie instead.

I think we were quite under dressed but i shoved that thought aside.

We watched Narnia.

Okay okay lor.

But I think the actors and actresses rly not very good looking.

Sooo i guess appearance really makes a big diff!

Then we took pics and we ate long john and we went home.

PICTURES WITH NAZHIRAH.

I LOVE HER CAMERA OMG.

Should've bought her's lor seriously.

But nevermind, i think i shld learn t love mine too. ahah.

Easy come easy go

2010-12-14T14:25:00.004+08:00

bought a new camera.

It has underwater function and fish eye and pinhole n stuff.

its awesome, rly. heh.

So the day after i bought it i immediately went for a swim t take pictures.

2010-12-11T01:26:00.002+08:00

THE PERSON WHO TOOK THE PHOTO FOR US WAS LIKE ' ARE YOUR SISTERS?'

ME: YES. (W/O THINKING) DO WE LOOK ALIKE?

HIM: YES, VERY.

ME: (WTF SERIOUS?!) (COS I PERSONALLY THINK WE LOOK KINDA, VERY DIFF AT TIMES)

DAMNNNNNNNNN FARNEYYYYYYYYYYY. AND WE WALKED AWAY LAUGHING

I THINK WE RLY LOOK ALIKE IN TH ABOVE PHOTO.

We didnt know thr'd be fireworks!

So xcited t find out!

ARE WE LUCKY OR WHUT?!

2010-12-09T13:49:00.002+08:00

Well I'd say, serve you right.

Dont point the finger at someone else.

You are the spark that caused the fire.

2010-12-08T20:44:00.005+08:00

Went for the CSI thingy at Science Centre with Bing kuen and Nadhir.
Initially was kinda fun. Slowly bored me out. Heh!
K then we had macs. Was so mad hungry!
Couldnt take pics in the CSI thingy tho.
We camwhored after that.
Like alot. Hah.
All the pics are in FB.
Jumpshots were fun. Cos there was a trampoline!
And Nadhir jumps soooo hard, Bk n me are always falling!
Seriously, you needa chill pill nadhir.
HAHA. He went wild. really wild.

2010-12-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

Tmr, bingkuen, nadhir and me, will be CSI agents.
Salute pls.
HAHAHA

2010-12-06T10:19:00.002+08:00

Revolting. Very.

2010-11-29T16:51:00.001+08:00

Am currently in Tokyo.
Prom pics will be up soon?
See y'all soon!

2010-11-19T21:18:00.003+08:00

DONT KNOW HOW TRUE. BUT GIVE IT A TRY! :)

http://www.wordofmouthexperiment.com/dedpyhto/tests/tibetian/index.htm

I ALWAYS KNEW I'M SOMEONE WITH OVERFLOWING PRIDE AND LOVE, WAS NEVER A PRIORITY IN MY LIFE.

KINDA TRUE.

1-st question. Priorities in your life:

1: FAMILY
2: PRIDE
3: MONEY
4: CAREER
5: LOVE

2-nd question:

active implies your own personality.
dangerous implies personality of your partner.
disusting implies the personality of your enemies
insomnia- It is how you interpret sex.
salty implies your own life.

3-rd question:

***** - Someone you will never forget.
**** - Someone you consider your true friend.
*** - Someone that you really love.
** - Your twin soul.
* - Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life.

What isit that you dont understand?

2010-11-19T20:41:00.004+08:00

Went fo swimming with selvi.

She accompanied me while i suntanned.

HAHA. obviously she didnt wanna be tanned.

I mean... y'all know what im driving at right hehe

And we literally had t run away from people.

Weird people. weird.

And then she went home.

Initial plan was t meet up with nadhir cos he wanted t shop for his prom clothes since nasri ditched us and bingkuen's not in sg.

But he wasnt feeling well. ohgod.

maybe tmr?

And tmr im gng for an interview.

LIKE FINALLY?! REALLY.

I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR AGES?

Thankgod.

And prom is this coming monday.

Think like what?

80% have no idea what t do anything or everything yet except for our outfits.

Thats my gussing. idk.

but I really m clueless on what t wear.

EVERYONE's (not everyone) is telling me how plain my dress is.

Thankyou. I needed comments. BUT... woah. isit really that bad.

I dont like fancy stuff n being in the limelight thou.

But im buying a new one.

I can wear that like for casual wear i guess.

BUHBYE.

2010-11-15T23:19:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we just have to learn to trust.

2010-11-14T00:00:00.003+08:00

Had a sleepover at Huimin's place.

bought a polaroid?

selling my holga. (EMAIL ME)

Went t Selvi's place for deepavali.

AWESOME FOOD.

LOVE THE CURRY MAX.

Nadhir was too shy to eat.

I had t force him to.

Played with lightsticks beside the large field at LOT1.

Then went below some randow block cos its darker?

Yea then can see the lightsticks more clearly.

We were desperately trying t capture the moving lightsticks on our arms.

lousy camera, obviously failed.

HAHA. Pictures with nadhir. will upload ASAP.

I was all along singing katy perry's " i wanna see your peacook "

catchy song!

then we went t CCK park t play hide and seek.

Im the muthaeffing best seeker.

HAHAHA. I hid behind a tree

They cannot find me :)

camouflage at the bench thr sitting down they also dint realise.

am i like awesome or wut?

hehehehe. decoders on monday w bingkuen n nadhir?

not t be confirmed.

Holidays are so boringgggggg.

Shld go visit my brother's soon!

OHYEAH, my brother's enlisting already!

In the police force.

SO SOON.

2010-11-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

I LIKE T STALK OUR SCH DE XIAOAHLIANS.

ANYONE WHO DOES THE SAME THING PUT YOUR HANDS UP.

HAHAHA

2010-11-09T11:18:00.000+08:00

2010-11-09T11:13:00.002+08:00

Old times like this are good t be recapped once in a while.

Too bad, we lost it all.

Remember my first T.

I had y'all thr for me.

( some sentences/phrases are eliminated )

September 2008

"yeeeeeeeees,i went t east coast todaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

with my usual's :}
okok, thou i always call selvi a - i still like her when she DOESNT PANGSEH ME
then we kinda got lost, alighted at the wrong bus stop
and took a cab there from somewhere in bedok,
we trained t bedok firsttttttttt
and selvi paid for the fare.
WOOOO~ you rock -
then we settled down played volleyball -.- neh
then we aren't happy with our turf* ahem
so we rented bikes one double and one single
i sat behind yanting while she rode the bike
like damn cool one you dont even need t hole the handles you just keep peddaling
and i was messaging - behind her. LAUGHS
and we found a spot, like so quiet and isolatedddddd
and yeap, we sat there played VOLLEY BALL AGAIN -.-
then we climbed up t this rock thingy bought burger king and ate up there
its really hot and there isn't a single drop of rain! :D
for that im happy!!
i guess we shouldnt have sat on the "rocks" cos after that i got like sunburns all over me -.-
my nose, cheek , upper lip, arms, thigh
ahhhh T.T
after a whole load of crap we went t bathe
like waaaaaaa, bathe in east coast, ofcos not naked,
its like a open space -.-
with our clothes one, veliiiiiiii refreshing :D
and when i was changing my sunburn hurt like hell .___________.
and i was the ONLY ONE WHO BURNED SO MUCH
they said cos i was FAIR? WHATTHEFUCK?!
okay so i am :D heeheehee:p
then we trained back, dint sleep in the train,
whereas slept in the train ON THE WAY T EAST COAST -.-
and my face had marks of selvi's bag cos i slept on her bag ( double =.=)
-
then then when yanting went home she saw- "

2010-11-06T18:36:00.008+08:00

I feel like this (picture above). Plan ruined. Naise.

2010-11-06T14:19:00.002+08:00

I remember the song ' The man who can't be moved ' on your mobile phone.
It's the smallest detail bout life that reminds me of you.

Good day people! It's a Saturday!
Good thing we still have 2 days t prepare for ss.
Going kite flying later, most probably.
But right now, I'm Recapping my ss.
Sucks, totally. Just gonna study governance, healthcare and Venice.
Who's too lazy t retake their MT o lvl?!?!
Me!

2010-11-04T23:26:00.002+08:00

I don't get it. Why am I still nursing the same wound after 2 years. I seriously thought everything was over. Wtf is wrong with me?!
I wanna get over it. Please. I really want to. But I can't seem to! I even thought I was kinda weird... But now I know it's cos you're still thr, lingering in my mind. Somewhere in the back of my head. Sometimes that little voice in me. Please go away. I want a new life. Go.

It's been the longest winter without you.

2010-11-03T11:30:00.002+08:00

This is Kan from F.Cuz. Whom is still blowing my mind ever since i saw their MV.

Went t town ytd for a short short while.

then had t rush back.

Applied for a job alr!

2010-10-30T18:28:00.004+08:00

Selling my holga. In pink. Comes with fish eye and fisheye viewer.

Email me. Insanity.onezeroone@hotmail.com

Nasri dont laugh at my email!

FREEDOM.

5 more papers t go and im free!

I mean... WE are free!

our long awaited holiday will be here soon!

Gonna go for some serious job hunting real soon.

I used t wanna work in a zoo. HAH.

I like dolphins. and it looks cool t be swimming with them.

IT MAKES ME COOL TOO.

Buhbye.

2010-10-22T12:47:00.003+08:00

Be back.

In two weeks time.

Or maybe, never.

2010-10-17T23:04:00.001+08:00

Time check: 11:04PM

Today i chiong science like mad. Cannot fail chem ah.

Fail i comfirm sad. After i post im gna surf the net fo awhile then im gna go chiong my chem again.

I die die must pass. QA must memorize like siao. Actually finish memorising alr HAHAH. But think just recap luh.

STEADY AH, CANNOT CHILL ALR.

Closed chapter

2010-10-15T14:08:00.003+08:00

I might just decide t let the cat out of the bag.
The fact is, I was never a good keeper for secrets and My only secret is you.
I never promised not t let it out of the bag anyways.
So don't blame me when people starts treating you like a whore.

Kite flying

2010-10-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

Tmr will be studying the whole day!

2010-10-08T16:49:00.002+08:00

So.... Right now, I'm on th bus. On the way tuition AND blogging while I've nothing t do. Hey Yknow what's it called. Killin two birds with one stone. Hahahaha som Chinese idiom. I think I'm Gna be late even thou I left home a tad earlier than normal. Well.... Traffic kinda sucks. And then I gotta switch buses. Heck why is my tuition in town!! I mean I love town but.... Urgh fo tuition?!
Can't upload pics cos I dint buy th app which allows me t upload pics and stuff. I think it's called blogpress? Idk! I forgot.
I have.... Uhm like half an hour t reachthr or I'll die? Cos im always late. Always. Dk why!
Got back my report bk today. I'm so happy improved!:)
I'm Gna do better! I will. I'll make it happen. Like which kid wouldnt want their parents t be proud of them? It'll be nice t see Ur parents going around sayen "hey look that's my girl"
Yeah ok. On the bus now. Just switched buses. Gotta go. Play w my apps. Hehehehe.

Love y'all who even take their time t read this space here.
Keeps me blogging:)

2010-10-04T16:32:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha i learnt a new malay word today!

Its kinda uhmm.... hahaha

and mrs sia was repeatin the word over n over again today i cannot stop laughin whenever she says it! Its like she's saying pipette. But she's pronouncing it wrongly so its like.......... HAHAHA

Rly damn wtf. Okay know wut

lil miss tardy queen is gna go get ready and meet jiaqi and nad

i dont wanna be late!

oh well... i always am the last one t arrive and wayyyyyy after the meeting time

hahahha! bad habit idk how t change!

happens for all the tuition i go.

Oooh O lvl's approaching! LIKE FINALLY

I cant wait t get it over and done with and start a new phase in life

make new friends meet people ;) ;)

wouldnt it great if hey soul sister graduates in the same year as me!

aw. but the best way t maintain a friendship is not t be so close that you've t meet em every single day ahhaha! it lessens the amt of quarrels u have right!

hahaha yeah like i talk with experience huh

OKAY GOTTA GO BATHE

STILL CANT FIND THE PRETTY RECKLESS ALBUM. WTF?!

Webcam folder

2010-10-03T15:58:00.003+08:00

So i was looking through my folders and i found this in my webcam folder.

so yeah BONUS. hAHHA.

Today's sunday! I've been studying at home all day!

I cant seem t get venice in my head!

So i got on t studyin my chem. At least i could make some sense of it.

And boy was i happy.

hehehehehe.

Btw, does anyone know where t buy their album!?

I cant seem t find it ANYWHERE.

Taylor momsen ftw!

MMWD.

2010-10-03T00:50:00.001+08:00

Its 12:50AM

The house is so silent i can hear the clock ticking.

Imma go watch glee season one episode one now and hopefully readup on venice.

buhbye and goodnight y'all readers!

2010-10-02T19:59:00.002+08:00

Omg remember the china girl who came t stay with me and my family for the 2 days 1 night thing?

when she was here i asked her t help me create a QQ account but sadly, singapore forbids the website even though we can log into the messenger if we create an account while in another country.

so i ask her if she could create one for me back when she's in china so i can add all the friends i made thr when i was in secondary two.

Omg she finally emailed me!

with my username and password. hahaha

she's sucha sweetheart right!

oh am gee.

But the thing is idk why it keeps saying wrong password.

so....... gotta ask her t help me check if thr;s anything wrong.

but still! SHE'S SUCHA SWEETHEART

LIKE TOTALLY

Pictures taken at Sake sushi

2010-10-01T15:07:00.005+08:00

Its always a happy day when you are out with someone who knows you inside out(:

Oh yep, tagboard is back.

Lets see if i get any tags?

otherwise i'll be removing it again D:

Sakae sushi!

2010-09-30T22:15:00.002+08:00

Okay so last tuesday meet up with Huimin!

Went t clementi t buy koi.

Although i had a very very bad first experience with koi becos the first time i tried it i thought it srsly taste like puke.

I decided t give it a go again. I cant stand it! why people keep saying that its nice when its not!

Okay so we tried the ice cream milk tea.

Nooootttt soooo badd.... BUT! I still feel like puking after drink it.

IDK WHY. Too much cream and milk! VERY MILKY N CREAMY I FEEL LIKE PUKING! >:

Okay then she was hungry. So we went sakae.

Expensive lehhh. and im saving money ahhaha for idk what becos i havent rly been going out ever since prelim started... i guess.

Yep went home after that and met up at night t study at macs nearby then homed at like 9plus.

2010-09-26T15:47:00.005+08:00

waddup!

2010-09-26T15:44:00.003+08:00

2010-09-26T15:44:00.001+08:00

2010-09-26T11:44:00.003+08:00

I look at your photo and I think, who is this girl? What has she become?
Well, who's gonna give me answers?
I reckon that I shouldn't care anymore.
What for care for someone who has no hope anymore?
Yeah. You. Hopeless.
You get me right?

2010-09-24T14:48:00.002+08:00

eat eat eat.

HAHAAH I COOK ROTI PRATA WITH FORK AND SPOON.

You must know that whenever i cook, there'll be a disaster!

2010-09-22T17:15:00.002+08:00

Enough about love stories and fairytales already.

We all know it wont come true.

WE'RE STILL YOUNG, RIGHT?

Well this doesnt apply to sluts ;)

uhm, yknow who..

no assumptions!

2010-09-22T11:50:00.001+08:00

Asian model (HEARTSHAPE)

She freakin spray tanned. Aint it obvious? HAHHAHA

pics from www.shopnastygal.com

Indulge

2010-09-22T11:47:00.001+08:00

2010-09-21T20:54:00.001+08:00

Young, talented and a uber nice voice!

2010-09-21T13:38:00.002+08:00

Wait till everyone knows what you did.

See how the hell are u gonna hold ur head up high and walk for the rest of ur sec sch life.

We'll see who has the last laugh bitch:)

Pa-pa-pa-pa-pasta

2010-09-20T22:02:00.005+08:00

Went t town today with Hey soul sister, huimin

HAAHHAH its was a crazy day yknow!

So, i saw a F21 dress, that I love.

But there weren't any S size.

IN ALL OF THE OUTLETS.

i mean, sg only has 3 f21? that sucks.

So sad i wanna cry.......

'nuff said.

shall go revise and read up on chem and D&T.

One less load today.

3 more paper t go and imma free girl!

Lady pasta - anonying orange

FUNNY SONG WHICH I M ADDICTED T.

HEY SOUL SISTER~

2010-09-19T21:19:00.003+08:00

I went swimming just now. Happy10 hahhaha!

then decided t eat KFC

Tried the new shaker popcorn chicken

okehhhhhh lahhhhhhhh~ I still prefer Mac's shaker fries!

uhmmm and cheesefries.

It was sinful! but ohgod... I've t exercise self-control

Then came home and mom tells me that we're going out for dinner

GREAT! >:

and I had THIS.... after hesitating for rly rly long i swear!

anyways, I've been playing sky burger ever since my lil bro introduced the game t me!

and every single time i play the game i'll feel damn hungry!

and since then, i've always craved for a burger.

Im not much of a burger eater. usually i eat stuff. not sure why but burger never appeals t me.

and then the game got me lovin' burgers! hahhaha!

I've been surpressing that urge t eat burgers cos it looks rly meaty!

but gahhhhh............ finally couldnt resist the temptation n decided t eat burger after the sinful kfc!

i regretttttttttttt yknowwwww..................

all my dieting goes t waste!

2010-09-19T12:36:00.004+08:00

I think its a sign that i shld bond more with my camera and be less camera-shy when in public.

Need t build self-esteem!

Prelims over soon!

Mug now.

Because there wont be time for regrets!